Thank you to everyone for your messages of support; they mean a lot.
Although I’m not my usual cheery, full of advice self, I think it’s important to keep blogging. This side of mental health exists, even for those of us who understand our conditions. In many ways it illustrates better than anything, the sudden impact mental ill-health has. It’s not that I need to ‘buck up’ or find a hobby or anything like that. I’m happy with my life; my brain just isn’t processing that happiness. I’m not doing anything differently from 8 months ago…my brain is.
However, I’m keeping on keeping on as much as I can. If I sound horribly depressed, that’s because I can only tell it as it is (anyone else with BPD find that?). Yesterday was a day for staying inside…but at least I completed my mittens and added a scarf to my winter wardrobe.